I’ve mentioned that I believe god is talking to me. Well, that doesn’t mean that I know anything more, really, than I knew before.
I mean, honestly, that’s not true; god has told me some stuff. I'll share some of it…some of it I can’t share now; maybe someone will see it in my diary after I die.
I'm doing that to protect myself and other people. As Jack Nicholson once said, “You can’t handle the truth!”
That is all I am going to say about that.
The things god wants me to reveal are intriguing, and he hasn’t told me the whole story yet. The most important thing is joy, which we call chardikala in Sikhism. That's the way.
god is happy.
Not sure why we are not.
If we are made in his image, we really don’t act like it.
Another thing about god is that he is cool.
I’m not sure where we got this warped image of him as this almighty old man who is truly boring. He invented, you know, like, personality. He has one. I don’t know, maybe many.
I mean, they say god is love. But what does the word love mean? It means too many things…it’s very unclear. But I know when I feel love. And when I talk to god, I feel that.
He’s got nothing but love for us, I swear. He’s not, like, mad at us.
Why are we so convinced he’s mad at us? He didn’t do ‘this’ to us. We fucked all this up ourselves.
And after all that, he’s not even mad.
I know I keep using he pronouns; it’s just more accessible that way. It has nothing to do with gender. But then again god may be a man considering the state of the world.
Anyway, the being that has been talking to me for the last 25 years is quite similar to a great person, only better. Think of the coolest person you know. Then multiply that by ten.
There you have god.
He doesn’t want our praise. He wants our love.
There’s a difference. A big difference.
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Why have we made god so much less interesting than the universe he supposedly created?
Huh? That is on us.
I mentioned in a previous post that god really has a fantastic sense of humor. He invented humor, after all.
Sometimes he’s laughing at us because we have it all wrong. Sometimes he is crying with us. In the realm of the absolute, where there is just love, god doesn’t feel things like sadness and anger. He still has a sense of humor, though. He always keeps his humor.
A lesson we could learn.
god sort of hangs out in our realm, which is the realm of the relative, where things are black and white, and most people don’t recognize their oneness. I’ll explain more about this later; it’s very complex.
Anyway, the point is, god is this happy-go-lucky guy, and he gets a really bad rap.
Another thing that’s really interesting about god is that he is truly passionate. Passionate about it all. He wants us to engage with passion in everything.
Look, I could be imagining this connection I have with god. The whole thing could be a figment of my imagination.
But what is imagination? It’s kind of a god thing. Like he is the creator.
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He made us all creators, and look at what we have done with that power.
But in the end, we can’t lose. The end of existence is that there is no end.
We can’t lose at this game we are playing. And that is what life is: a kind of game for him and a game for us.
We came from a place of love and bliss, and we will return there. All of us.
There’s a line in Gurbani that my mom used to tell me: “Kaal, kaal, kaal, phir ant kho phir ik.” She told me it means god plays, plays, plays, and then he becomes one again. I may have gotten the Punjabi and the translation wrong. I’m preserving it this way because this is how I remember it.
So, like, don’t sweat the small stuff.
Nothing actually matters.
We are just playing.
nina
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