MANIA described Part II

WHEN I’m MANIC I mentioned before that I get in touch with my demons. Well, when I’m manic I also get in touch with THE HOLY SPIRIT.

“WHat is that?” You ask.

I don’t know, I just know I feel euphoria and love, love like I’ve never felt before. I met a guy at a SIkh camp once, I had.a crush on hinm, I was 14, he was in his 20’s. He told us he had done cocaine and found that mediation gave him the same high as coke did. Basically, he loved everything and everyone when he was on cocaine. when he got off the coke he went into a rehab center and they told him that he didn’t have any side effects, that it seemed like a miracle. He told the rehab center he sat in meditation for like many days straight to get off the coke.

I told this guy that i wanteed to be a lawyer, then I wrote him a letter after camp. He came back to camp and told me I should become a writer. I laughed at him. But here we are.

THere are stories of people doing LSD in the seventies who quit and started doing meditation. They got even greater highs off of the meditation. People have written books about this. Look them up if you are interested. I’m interested. I’ll probably look them up.

When I was in the psych ward I tried to tell this story to a crack addict girl, she was so pretty and brilliant, she was also a prostitute who sold her body for crack. She smoked crack every single day.

I hope one day she gets off that shit.

nina

Me Looking manic first thing in the morning

Is it happiness or craziness that makes me this way? Who will ever know?