What am I supposed to make of all this? I like men of all races, ethnicities etc. But people's sexual preferences, are they up for suspicion? Should they be analyzed? Are their weird factors of race relations at play here?In the olden days during slavery, many slave owners were married to white women but raped black women. The reason I bring this up is, the white men were sexually attracted to both races but could not respect the black women. Fast forward to the present and let's be honest, you don't find many white guys searching for black women, but you do find more black men with white women.Black women will tell you a black man who chases after white women is trying to find a trophy, a way to sell out. I bet white men, a lot of them, will tell you they are just not attracted to black women. And then there is us, the brown people. We meander through, white men, black men, and brown men. Since we are a medium color, we get an experience with all of this.In this whole weird game, is the white person the ultimate prize?Is it because we see white people on the cover of magazines and besides the president, we see them in positions of power? Is the ideal of beauty still white? In Indian culture, the whiter your skin, the more beautiful you are perceived. If you look at ads on Indian marriage websites, they will often say that they are looking for a fair skinned bride.It makes me want to vomit and I have fair skin. In fact, my skin is so fair she I am often mistaken for other ethnicities. But apparently, I am not the fairest of them all, because that one guy in high school did not find my ethnic coloring attractive.
Trust me when I say I'm over it...but I wonder? I got to question myself here a bit. In my school at the time, most of the popular people were white even though there were tons of Indians and other Asians in my school. Was part of the reason I liked this guy because he held a position of power by being white and by being popular? Hmmm. Was part of my attraction to him about his power? Was part of his dislike for me about my ethnicity not being part of his group which he perceived as superior to my group of friends.I also wonder about other things. I mean are there men who don't find Penelope Cruz or Halle Berry attractive? Come on?I mean there is a natural element, people are inclined to want their own "kind" for a whole host of reasons. A lot of it has to do with familiarity and similar upbringings. Some of it has to do with being attracted to someone who looks similar to you. But to not at all find anyone who is different then you attractive is kinda closed minded I think. I don't per say think it's racist, I think it's stupid.I don't want to judge, but I find it suspect, like when people have never tried other ethnic cuisines and only eat one kind of food. I mean I respect the fact that some people don't like sushi, but there is plenty of other Japanese food to like. There is a whole world of cuisine out there, you may not know what you are missing. Just sayin...Pretty soon people are going to be so mixed in this country that they will be part white, yellow, black, brown etc. Maybe soon we won't really have a color. I don't know if that time will actually come, but will we have these barriers up then?I have a friend who is in law school with some young "kids" in their twenties. He says that all this work about equality for race and women and LGBT people has really set in their minds. Something is working. They are not shocked that there is a black president. Maybe they don't see so much difference in what races they find attractive.I hope things have changed for real. I hope there is hope.As for me, I used to really want an Indian man in my twenties, I used to find that kind of man the most attractive. Now that I've grown, I'm open to all sorts of men, race or ethnicity honestly does not matter to me. I'm not against my peeps, but I'm open to all people. But will they all be open to me?nina